"I DESERVE It!"

I think we all need to throw out any sort of attachment to the idea of deserving things.

It's all about power and ownership. We walk around talking about what we deserve and what we don't as if there's some bank we pay into with our good deeds and then take loans out of when we are feeling emotionally lazy.

"I do good things, I'm a good person so I deserve better."

Why? Why do you deserve better? Do you do good things so you can receive good things? I hope not. I hope you just do them to do them. I hope you do them because you know the truth is that it is the best way to be, to be fair, to be honest, generous, kind, compassionate. I hope we are good people just to be good people.

So why suddenly when things don't go our way do we scream up to the heavens about how we don't deserve it because we've been paying in? It takes power away from us to do that. It makes us seem like we are just these hopeless flailing victims at the mercy of god and life and whatever. We say "how could this happen, I don't deserve this!!!" and it gives power to the obstacles we face. We are saying "I am helpless against this" when we allow ourselves to believe that we deserve this or that. It works both ways with a victim state. It's either "I deserved that because I am bad in these ways" or "I don't deserve that because I am good in these ways". They are both victim states, do you see?

Take your power back. Take ownership of your obstacles & failures the same way you would take ownership of your triumphs. Instead of saying "Why me?" say "What now?". Instead of saying "I don't deserve this" say "This happened to me and it is awful and now what." I think it's okay to feel frustrated and overwhelmed and angry, but don't for a second allow these things to have power over you by thinking that you are owed good or bad things from the universe.

Let's stop believing there is a karmic bank with a karmic accountant keeping track of our deposits and withdrawals and deciding whether or not we get to have a loan. Let's stop believing in the law of "good person = good stuff". Let's stop allowing ourselves to believe that we are victims of fate or that we have to be victims of circumstance, or victims at all. Let's start believing that it's better for everyone to do right by each other, not because we want right done to us in return, but because ultimately it makes everyone's lives better.